the communist daughter

i am convinced that i don’t deserve a single good thing in my life

i am indifferent, shifty and impossible. i know my wrong doings but i wont admit them.

i push people away because i simply do not deserve them and they do not deserve to subject themselves to someone like me

i’m going to hide my head in shame, read books and bury myself deep within a mountain of blankets and sheets

i deserve my company and my company only